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A Date

...................with none other than my dearest YVONNE.

Thanks for paying for almost everything, food and arcade...
I felt like I ate non-stop since 4pm, guilty pleasure sia.  

I so hope that I could treat you back soon. Love ya!

THE LABYRINTH

TRAIN SCENE: Waacking (by Nicole Claire)

UNDERWORLD SCENE: Mannequin (by Badd)

No One

I hate the fact that 예준 is younger than me. He's a 1992 baby...OMG WHYYYYYYY!!!!

이기섭 & 일라이 are also younger than me even though they are 1991 babies. Worst still, 이기섭's birthday is on the 17th of Jan, which means he is 4 days younger than me. DON'T LIKE x100000000000000!!!

Thank you Jac, MK, Von, Liang, Fei, Pei, Jw & gf and everyone out there who came to support TPDE yesterday and on Friday as well! Appreciated :)

Thank you girlfriends for the flowers too! Btw, if you all realised I didn't mention your names at all, I'm referring to you GAYLE LIM, JESSICA CHOW AND MANDELENA KOH! LOL. WHERE'S OUR FLOWERS????? 

Finally I'm here..

Concert was a success.

Big thanks to Ryan, AnAn, Badd, Nicole Claire and all the other choreographers and dancers.

Also, thanks Jessica for always being there for me and putting up with my attitude. I love you!
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At times, it was really difficult, many tears and struggles. But yeah somehow I managed to survive. Really glad that TPDE made it and that concert is finally over.

I'm really affected about something. So affected that I can't get over it.

I really tried my best. I mean it. I never wanted something so much in my life. I have come so far to reach where I am now... The journey was full of ups and downs and now that I'm here, it didn't get any better.

I know I'm not good enough. I know that. But I really put in a lot of effort in hoping that I could give a good show. So why can't you just stop bringing me down?

It really hurts...

People like you will never understand...

TPDE GEM 5

Our first show today was pretty successful! Thank god our pink wigs didn't drop off while we were dancing...

TOMORROW WILL BE EVEN BETTER! :D

뱀파이어

I feel like an AB type, gloomy and boring. (but in actual fact I'm an O type, so I think this whole blood type & personality thingy is not that accurate...)

I really like Alexander, 기섭 and 수현's type.
I still love 일라이 but Alexander has the best personality! Can't wait for the next subbed episode!

Have been busy chionging GEMS. Another week to the actual concert.
Hopefully after GEMS I can get back on track and continue with my 한굴. I need to stop relying on subs!

FOR NOW, I must focus on GEMS training.
BE IN CHARACTER MELISSA LIM, KEEP WORKING ON IT!!! Fighting!!!


I know I suck, but I'm trying really hard....

12 more days...

B2ST Comeback stage FOR THE WIN.

I love their choreo and I think 현승 is an amazing dancer, I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE!

So sad I'm gonna miss Music bank and Invincible youth on Mon & Tues. I'm annoyed, cause I won't be at home for BOTH days and that I waited for the next epi for like 2 freaking weeks? Aish I'm still gonna miss it in the end so good game.

Self learning still sucks. 안아줘!!!

Jeremy Scott

I've always wanted a Jeremy Scott's since like 123456789 years ago!!!
Sadly I'm too poor to own one...

Ok, just being random...

R-E-A-L

아이고! 힘들어 죽겠다! Waiting is tiring...

I'm gonna be freaking busy from tomorrow onwards. I hope everything turns out well, be it work or dance.

미안합니다!!!
I have my own struggles.

It's time to really put my heart into this and make the best out of it.

Shock of the new era

장현승 & 이기광!!!

어떻게? 어떻게? 어떻게?

짜증나!!!

Please don't let it happen. I hate decision making.

Eli

I'm in love with Eli now.

And yesterday, I randomly chanced upon 2am & 2pm pre-debut documentary or some sort, and Jae Beom looks really cute in there. I think I miss him ):

2 days of self-learning kind of sucks. I can more or less read the words now but I still can't pronounce it properly or neither do I even know the meaning. I need to work extra harder. Hwaiting!

K la at least I was able to write man man ha ni in hangul without having to refer to any notes so that's quite an achievement.

Hangul

K first thing first, I've finally cleared all my debts!!!

Secondly, I'm so sad cause the discount period for the headphones are over. Almost got it yesterday but didn't, need to re-consider cause I'm not sure if I wanna spend hundred bucks on a pair of headphones when I could have gotten it at 89 in the first place? Aish so near yet so far? I SO FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF NOW. Totally hate myself for not getting it like last week? ): ): ): ): ):

Think I will check out other outlets tomorrow... Hopefully I can get it at 89.

So yeah exams are over and I can't wait to start working! The thing now is Pei's going MIA and I'm not sure if the lady boss still wants me. Argh...

Those days of brokeness were scary. Glad everything's over now. Gamsa Hamnida CNY and my brother for making me stable financially... I just needa get out there and work and save alot of money. God help me please?

YELLOW

This really sucks.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE TO STUDY WHEN IT'S CNY NOW.

Bummer, really. I would really love to join the girls at Jac's place later but there's just too many chapters to cover and I can't decide whether to go or not. ARGH BUT I REALLY WANNA GO. RAH Should I????????

OK RANDOMLY. I'm gonna get my yellow headphones soon soon soon! haha super happy cause the angpows made me slightly richer again! Not that rich la but at least the money in my bank counts more than ZERO after like one whole year of brokeness. This is something that I should be proud of!

Oh and of course, I'm gonna pay off my debts before next month starts so MANDE LISHAN YVONNE PEISHAN please anticipate! HAHA.

AND ANDREW PETER LOH, I WILL TREAT YOU TO SAKAE SUSHI SO PLEASE ANTICIPATE TOO.

Haha hopefully can get a part time job and manage my moolah even better. I DON'T WANT TO BE BROKE AGAIN. NEVER.

YELLOW HEADPHONES HERE I COME~~~^^

CNY

CNY feels just like any other day. The only awesome thing about it is none other than THE FOOD. All the pineapple tarts, love letters, chocolates, junkies are the bomb!!! Oh and the ang pows of course!

Haha CNY used to be really happening in the past.

Nehmind. So anyhow, yesterday was really enjoyable cause we went visiting! Can't believe we are all growing up so fast! And seeing our little cousins reminded us a lot about ourselves... Haha we are all grown ups now so say boo.

After visiting, the four of us headed to town for shopping! Had pasta for dinner, which is damn gross I don't like.

I'm a bit sad cause I don't have CNY clothes at all... so I think I shall go shopping after new year.

Anyway, Thank you anonymous. Feiyan Fyn.
LOVE YOU LA.

Thoughts...

Decided to remove this post for good.

Specially written for my lil sis, Jessica Chow

Happy 18th birthday!

So sorry we couldn't celebrate your special day with you but you know we love you so very much!!!

사랑해 (Okay I don't know what it means cause I kope this from Gayle's blog... haha)
Nehmind I will learn it soon so just bear with my loser-ness for now!

Omg I can't believe you're 18 already but anyhow, be more confident please! You're really super awesome! Your sis loves you for who you are so be happy and don't look down on yourself ever again alright? ^^

We shall go stalking with the rest soon ok! Omg I'm so sad I missed this whole stalking thingy, but I'm happy that you girls enjoyed yourself!

Seoul yummy soon with the other pigs soon ok?

Sarang Hae~

Tired...

Basically I'm sick and tired of everything.

2010 sucks.

Hair trouble.

I feel like dyeing my hair back to black ):

And somehow I'm tempted to cut bangs again...

The thing is black hair doesn't make me look Koreanish at all. So right now I'm confused. Should I or should not?

Distractions

Today feels like a crappy day.

The smell of smoke, the noise, the environment, the people.

Argh I can seriously die now cause I spent 5 freaking hours working on my Modani scenes and the awesome thing is nothing's done.

So sad I couldn't join the rest for stalking today. ):


School is taking my life away... I really need a break.

Waacking!

Gosh I'm so proud of myself yesterday cause I wasn't sad or demoralised or emo at all when my name wasn't read out after Street Jazz audition at O school. Haha I knew I won't get in for sure but at least I tried and I feel good about it? Ok la, don't mention the part where I almost give up haha. So yeah, I'm just glad I didn't get affected.

Unlike Monday, I was extremely upset. I screwed two hiphop items, especially the second one. When I reached the third audition, which is waacking, I wanted to give up already. But somehow, I stayed thanks to Junko and Jessica. I was so affected by the earlier auditions that I thought I wasn't gonna make it for waacking as well. 

This morning I was greeted by Jessica's text, that I got into waacking. I swear I was overjoyed I almost jumped like ten feet high in the air. Ok that's not the point, but yay I was really happy cause I like waacking and really wanna learn it. Am so glad I stayed!

Thank God for everything!

What on earth...

I didn't know there was dance training today?

I still casually thought that finally I could have the whole of Saturday to chiong my Telecom project since I have another project to do tomorrow....till LB came online and asked why didn't I attend training today.

Of course I was damn freaking shocked?!

Dance has always been my priority so I'm damn annoyed now cause I missed it for NO REASON at all? I have no idea why things are going so crappy for me.

I hate missing dance classes, hate it cause I know I've missed out enough.

Joke of the day

Me.

Never gonna make it as a dancer. I'm just pathetic.

I'm so sad I freaking wanna sleep forever...

What a bad day.

A little disappointed

My brain can't seem to stop thinking about it.

But nehmind, I'll be okay. I will still work hard. I will try even harder than before.

Practice.

Boomz

Had belated birthday dinner with Chow, Gayle, Pei, Jess, Von, Lishan, Fei, Jac & Mk at Seoul Yummy. Dinner was awesome and I miss the cheese pancake already... ):

I was really shocked that you girls got me Nike BOOMZ. Like omg I wasn't expecting Nike at all. I really really like it so please stop doubting me tskkkk!!!

I really needed a new pair of shoes for dance cause my DC's being a bitch. I secretly wished for it and it came true haha!


THANK YOU GIRLS FOR EVERYTHING.
Sarang Hae!^^

Check list

This entry is for my reference. I shall blog about yesterday when I'm free cause now I'm so busy mugging for quizzes last minute-ly, as usual.

I need to manage my time well but I don't know how.

NETFUND
CRC
Hamming Code
IP addressing
Tut 6B and 7
Self-study chapter 4.2, 4.3, 5.1, 5.2, 5.3, 5.4

MODANI
Chapter 2, 3, 4 & 5

TELECOM
Chapter 4, 5 & 6
Tut 4, 5 & 6
FM, FM Circuit, FM Transmitter, Frequency Multiplier, Frequency Converter

I must do well for all these quizzes! I MUST.

Please

I wish I could go for J/K pop class next tuesday.
I need to de-stress!

So sad my stussy bag is gone :(

Really wanted it rah. It was still there 2 weeks ago! I guess I have to make do with my ugly bagpack for now. Gonna start hunting for a new bag, hopefully I will be able to find something similar to the Stussy bp I saw.

Saw pretty headphones today. Prettier than the ones I saw at ION. Mom and Sis thinks that they are way too big and bulky... but it's really cool. The price is even cooler. $1xx? haha awesome much.

SO I'VE DECIDED WHAT TO DO WITH THE SPONSORSHIP. (from my awesome mom and sis as a b'day present)

I think I will get myself a new pair of shoes for dance! But I need the link from Jessica Chow! Dear, get back to me when you see this?

Birthday Bash

I'm officially 19. This shall be the longest entry ever!

Firstly, wanna thank my awesome Mom and Sis for giving me an advance birthday surprise on the 12th. Too bad we couldn't celebrate it at home and Dad wasn't around...but you know I love you all!

Secondly, I was really happy to see the usual 3 today at 12 am+! It was such a surprise, wasn't expecting that at all. Thanks Amos, Andrew and Kwan! Kwan please don't upload my super unglam photos hor!!!

After the mini celebration, we went for supper near my place. Reached home after 2am. Later at 830am, met up with Andrew to have breakfast with my Mom and Dad. My dog damn steady no joke. So we headed to school together after breakfast. Andrew went for his lecture while I headed off for my E-Math tutorial. So sad, imagine having to go school on your birthday? Rah. Ok then we met up again at 12 and aimlessly walked around TM, CS and T1. Had soya bean ice cream at T1 rooftop, awesome much. Thanks dog for accompanying me today, you're man's best friend!

Back to school at 2pm. 4 hours of crap programming was torturing as usual. Met up with Kesh at 6 after like so long! haha we went to get waffles from opposite school and headed for training together. Waacking was fun! Thanks Kesh for the waffle! We shall meet up for coffee soon, can't wait!

Dance ended pretty early and Jessica Ser seriously can't act for nuts! Haha I knew there was gonna be a surprise cause Jess and Kwan gave it away. Haha but I totally wasn't expecting Gayle and Chow to be there. Omg so happy to see all of them cause my day wouldn't be complete without my girls and my pigs. Haha I really love the slideshow and what Chow did for me. Shall upload it when I received it from her. And right, I think I will get anti-ed by Hyun Seung's fans if I showcase Chow's masterpiece. lol.

I swear the girls were damn scary. They had such a great time whacking me. Gosh. Hope no one uploads all the unglam videos. And sorry jac I destroyed your watch... ):

Once again, thank you Mom, Sis, Lishan, Kwan, Jess Ser, Peishan, Jac, Fei, Vonne, Gayle, Chow, Andrew, Amos, Kesh, classmates, TPDE peeps and those who wished me via FB, MSN & SMS. Love you all!

Will upload more photos soon cause apparently Peishan is too lazy to send me. So I shall wait. lol

P.S I feel so old.

Random

Thanks Mom and Sis.

I love you all^^

B4

Omg I can't believe it!

I was so totally expecting a D7 and it turned out that I scored better than expected. Thank God for everything!

I went back online to double check my results in hoping that I wasn't dreaming and no doubt it's still a B4! Haha finally something good is happening to me!

Can't wait to share the good news with my sister. She kindly sponsored me to retake this subj and had paid more than 100. Thanks sis! I'm so glad that I didn't let you down...

Congrats to my lovely pigs. CYA ALL IN TP! HAHA.

Change?

Change is scary. I don't know you anymore.

Home no longer feels like one and I guess there's no way we will find it back. The love, the warmth, the bond..........
It's all gone.

I know you will never love us like how you used to... it's too sad to see it yourself.

I'm tired. Really am. I don't know how long I'm able to take this and how long you're gonna remain like this. Know your limits ____, don't let your change affect me so bad. I'm only human. I need a proper home.

TGIF

Thanks Gayle, Chow, Kareena and Jorene for the company to Peni though I din manage to get the stuffs that I wanted^^

Went for MTV Groove & New school hiphop earlier on and was incredibly demoralised. Realised how lousy I was. Technique-wise, flexibility, bounces and blah....basically everything cui. I'm not improving at all. I guess I need to go for more open classes. It feels like I'm way too far from my dreams, or maybe it is not even gonna happen cause I'm never gonna make it? There are so many better dancers out there, what makes me so special?

So disappointed in myself.

Enough said.

So little time

Street jazz and J/K pop with Jess yesterday. Mande was sick so she didn't join us. Sorry dear we had to go without you ):

So happy I found the song Yutaki used for his class yesterday. It's 'toc toc toc' by Lee Hyori. I really like his choreo, very korean. haha

So sad we won't be able to go for J/K pop class anymore cause concert training officially starts next week and the training schedule is crazy, so we need to quickly clear off all the remaining classes. 5 more to go, 2 tomorrow and another 2 the day after.

I'm so afraid that I might neglect my studies for dance. Hope not... cause I failed MCT and I need to pass the main paper. I don't wanna remodule at all NOOOoOOOOOOOoo NO NO.
MCT IS OFFICIALLY THE NEW ENEMY!

So yeah, gotta try to enjoy this whole week before intense training starts. Hwaiting~

I still love them don't be surprised!

I like Joon and Mir from Mblaq too. Haha they damn cute.
But still, B2ST is the BEST^^

XIE PEISHAN!

I seriously asked her to help me with my survey, and this is what she wrote! LOL WTH.

Nightmare

Now that the fever is gone, my sore throat and headache got worse. I felt so terrible I had to see the doc today. Mom knows I hate going to the doc's and was so surprised that I'd actually asked her to bring me there. I had no choice cause the pain at the throat was unbearable. I needed pain relievers or whatever that could cure me---and fast! However, the medicine and pills I got from the doc didn't seem to work at all, I'm still feeling very sick.

Regretted, for dragging till today...

Aish~ What a way to spend the first few days of 2010.

Unwell

Headache and super bad sorethroat since yesterday.

2010

Sick on the first day of 2010. Lucky me.

Funny. I've always wanted to fall sick on school days and my body somehow didn't allow me to. And look what happens now? It chose to fall sick on a public holiday! Aish... Like out of so many days WHY TODAY.

I love Hyun Seung and AJ's coming close. Haha random.

Yeah btw happy new year pull your ear!!!